I didn't have any problems with my mental health in my youth.
After I left Columbia Bible College in 1997 I was in a state of mental distress. For a time I was homeless. I was exhibiting symptoms of PTSD. I unknowingly did trauma blocking using computer gaming and internet surfing. Most of the time I was alone.
I worked within the Mental Health field as a caregiver for mentally handicapped people which, surprisingly, was actually therapeutic for me. My mental health symptoms were suppressed for a time because of this. Over the years there were encounters with Mennonites that caused me to have problems. On two occasions I dropped out of colleges because of them. On another occasion I was assaulted by an Aryan man who was with an asian/oriental man while I was working in a bakery in Fort Langley. There were other things that happened. On one occasion an anonymous letter was received by one of my employers while I was in a disciplinary session. The co-exectuive directors, Tanya Sather and Richard Faucher, told me of a communication they had received from Columbia Bible Colllege. I never saw the letter they said they received however it led to my termination from employment.
From 1999 to 2007 I was dealing with about five web designers and companies: Internet Gateway's Anselm Lo, Tecweb.ca's Patrick Major, Brian Fox, Nexgeninet.com's Darryl Sandy and Farzin Dhanji. I paid tens of thousands of dollars to most of them and each one of them each had some excuse for not completing my web project. I would be ignored for months on end and would do everything in my power to try and get in touch with the programmers. One mis-programmed my website and did not follow my instructions at all. Another simply broke our contract and ignored me for just under two years. Another designer kept reassuring me over the telephone that they were working on my website only to meet with my almost two years later to tell me that they had failed me. Some of these programmers accused me of committing various crimes using social media.
After this I began to deteriorate substantially. My marriage and family were having financial difficulties.
I left my my wife at her encouragement to work in the Alberta Oil Patch and remained there for two years. When I returned my wife chad moved in with another man and left me.
In 2007, I committed violent crimes against the man who committed adultery with my wife and took my children away from me. While I was in Surrey Pretrial, a psychiatrist
named Dr. Dhilli, diagnosed me with PTSD, delusional disorder, persecutory/conspiracy disorder and attention deficit hyperactive disorder. I was sentenced to a federal sentence and served five years in federal prison.
I was in RTC (a prison psychiatric hospital for most of that time). I met with many psychiatrists both in prison and while on parole. I was diagnosed with other mental illnesses. These were narcissistic personality disorder, paranoid personality disorder, dissociative personality disorder, antisocial personality disorder, intermittent explosive disorder, NOS and Fetal Alcohol Syndrome. During my time in RTC, I received drugs. No counselling for the entire time in CSC. I wasn't cured or properly treated for my mental illness and I was maintained in a state of mental illness.
I was certified mentally ill near the end of my time in RTC., in 2011 I was transferred to Timbercreek Hospital in the community where I was really drugged up. I still received no counselling. I was receiving 500 mg every two weeks of Zuclopenthexol by injection. No matter what I did I could not decertify. the reasons why I was certified mentally ill for ten years were: refusing to change medications, being highly intelligent, having a mother who is mentally ill, growing my beard and hair long, quitting working in the prison kitchen, having a flat affect, filing complaints against my parole officer, scoring high on Psycopathic test, not allowing women into vehicles first, not allowing women through doorways first, being suicidal in the Psychiatric hospital and pleading guilty to attempted rape of a peaceful Mennonite woman named Wendy Heidebrecht in 1997.
In 2021 the certification was removed however I still have not received counselling. I began taking EMDR therapy however due to lack of funding this stopped. I was denied assistance by VCAP (Victim of Crime Assistance Program) based in Vancouver.
Currently, I am not as bad as I used to be however there are times when I will just start staring and thinking. I do a lot of ruminating. I have intrusive thoughts. I experience breathing problems due to anxiety from thinking about the past since 1992. It has not been easy. I no longer meet with any psychiatric mental health team.